在上學的途中，
Jocelyn突然想起已經許久沒有回校的V。
「或者V唔再o番來了。」她輕描淡寫地說。
這許久不見的同學，女兒常為她的不在，想過不同，卻都是短暫的理由。
我向車內的倒後鏡望，第一次看見她天真的面上，那若有所思的神情：
「而家得M，R，和S一齊玩了…」
那是一個落寞的神情。
那一刻，爸爸為妳，就這樣經歷了人生的「愛別離」，
心也碎了。
是的。那天看見妳最要好的同學，她的名字從班房中的名單上刪除了，我也不知怎樣對妳說。
沒有解釋、沒有道別。
總覺得，像妳這個年紀，這不是妳應該有的經歷。
不應該。
我沒有說話，
只有心裡想：
「女兒，這就是生命中的無常和荒謬。」
妳懂嗎？
作爸爸的，
情願
妳不懂。
You become like what you worship. You reflect the one you worship.
Those who keep on blogging
Those who help me understand what He said
What we think He is saying
What the world is saying
What the world is expressing
We depend so much on technology, yet we hardly care to know anything about it.
Great minds I finished (or gave up) wrestling with
Great minds that demand me to wrestle with
Where they are
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2 Comments
Maggie
Hey Edmund, Jocelyn only lost one friend right? That picture you have on the blog seems like she lost all of them, haha…
Apr 3rd, 2009
edmund
Yes, just one friend. Of course the “blurring out” effect is there for the symbolism AND the privacy reason. : ) Who knows how many parents will freak out when they see their children faces on web…
Apr 3rd, 2009
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