becoming

在上學的途中，

Jocelyn突然想起已經許久沒有回校的V。

「或者V唔再o番來了。」她輕描淡寫地說。

這許久不見的同學，女兒常為她的不在，想過不同，卻都是短暫的理由。

我向車內的倒後鏡望，第一次看見她天真的面上，那若有所思的神情：

「而家得M，R，和S一齊玩了…」

那是一個落寞的神情。

那一刻，爸爸為妳，就這樣經歷了人生的「愛別離」，

心也碎了。

是的。那天看見妳最要好的同學，她的名字從班房中的名單上刪除了，我也不知怎樣對妳說。

沒有解釋、沒有道別。

總覺得，像妳這個年紀，這不是妳應該有的經歷。

不應該。

我沒有說話，

只有心裡想：

「女兒，這就是生命中的無常和荒謬。」

妳懂嗎？

作爸爸的，

情願

妳不懂。

For those of you who do, please pray for my daughter Jocelyn as she is having fever again (the last one was barely a week ago!), and medication does not seem to stop it.

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Update: Jocelyn’s fever resided somewhat. Medications will continue until next week. Thank you for those of you who prayed for her.

Some great pictures taken by Stephen on Dec 20, 2008.

Pictures from various visits. Enjoy!

Mainland China:

Macau:

Ocean Park:

同細佬Adrian 和 Jocelyn 做的專訪：

死唔死，來了四日（拍攝時），「我鍾意Hong Kong 多過 Canada…」

No, I am not making this stuff up:

Yes, it is Jesus’ birthday, and he is inviting Jocelyn to his birthday party on a Sunday morning!

After seeing our car made a detour, my daughter made a profound statement on her way to school this morning:

Why do we need go back?

Because we need to go home.

(Jocelyn, age 3 1/2)

Jocelyn says:

Daddy said the first Monday of September is Labour Day, so we should do some labour work. We were cleaning up our dirty and muddy garage this afternoon after church. I did a lot of scrubbing and washing. And I “accidentally” made Daddy all wet with the super water gun! (Don’t tell Daddy, but I do know Labour day is not for physically work, but hey, as long as I can play with water, who am I to argue!